I have been praying for this child for 26% of her life. I have known about her for 415 days and have thought of her and lifted her up each and every one of those days.
This 415 days is less than 3% of my lifetime. Wow. If this process seems to be taking forever for me, what must it seem like for her? I pray that someday she will understand the ache in our hearts at the long wait.
We should be receiving our renewed I800a this week. Maybe it is even in today's mail. Her passport is still being processed and will hopefully come sooner than later. I trust in God's timing, but it doesn't mean that I like it. I know that He sees the tapestry of my life and of her life from above and sees the picture that is being woven. I am underneath staring at the threads, not understanding the image that is forming. I trust Him. I give Him my impatience.
It is hard for me to see people who started their adoption process after we did receiving their children before we do. The inner child in me is jumping up and down and shouting, "No fair! I was here first!" I do not begrudge anyone their success. My heart rejoices when any child is received by their forever family. Yet the inner child inside is still verging on a tantrum. I trust. His timing is the right timing.
We are working on being ready to receive her. We have a bed for her next to ours. We have her clothes washed and ready. We have a soft, fuzzy blankie ready. We have a toothbrush, and a coat, and a booster seat. Her car seat is ready to go into the van. We have a Bitty Baby waiting for her in the living room. We have suitcases in the family room collecting things to take. We are ready. Now we just need for the bureaucrats to finish their jobs and say, "Come."
Now a treat: photos of her :)
1 comment:
Sweet photos! She looks like she is ready to be with her family!!
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